Have you ever had one of those days, you know what I'm talking about, don't ya! Yesterday was just that for me, I wake up in a crabby impatient mood, got my coffee, read my daily devotions (in vain by the way), got the 1st kid up and I didn't even want to mess with him (are you still with me?), got him off found out that the stray dog they brought home got in the house sometime/somehow in the middle of the night and found her this morning under my bed, bad mood made ever worse by the fact that she could be loaded with fleas or ticks or whatever and I certainly didn't want her in this house let alone under MY bed, ok move on I get to work and still in my crabby mood, the fax machine was beeping and it took me like forever to figure out what the heck was wrong with it, getting a headache by this time, got a few emails that made me smile so I thought hey this day is looking up, right? Wrong, it seems like everything was going wrong today, had to make brownies and beans to take to a banquet for one of the kids tonight, they turned out ok but still I wasn't in the mood, got home and had to get homework done right away because we would be leaving in an hour and we wouldn't have time once we got home, let's just say he didn't want to do homework anymore than I felt like messing with it either so another tantrum (by him and me), so the banquet went ok, got home it was hot and I was tired and totally embarrassed by how I had acted ALL DAY LONG, did I mention that it was my birthday,hmmmmm, nice huh? And then somehow my camera deleted 3hundred and something pictures that I had not yet printed off, totally bummed and ready to cry, by this point I just wanted to go to bed and be left alone, I took a shower got the kids in bed then went to bed and didn't sleep very well. So all in all it was just one of those days, I knew I was about due one since it had been so long since I had one, but what a miserable way to spend your birthday. I woke up this morning and thought, man am I glad that day is done with. Such a sad way to waste a God given day, but I did and now I need to ask for forgiveness and start all over again. I am so thankful we have a God of 2nd, 3rd, 4th and so on chances. But the good out of the day was that my mother and sister drove 45 minutes to bring me lunch, flowers and a card and ate with me, it was a nice break in the mood, but it didn't dissipate it totally. I still feel horrible about the way I acted yesterday, I know God and family has forgiven me, but I am really bad about forgiving myself.
So just another reminder that we control our moods and this saying is true sometime "if momma ain't happy, no one is happy". But when I look back on yesterday I think maybe my attitude has been going south fast and I just needed a "gentle" push from God to snap back into reality. I do believe He allows those kinds of days as a way of pruning us to grow how He wants us to. That God of ours is one smart cookie, He is good all the time and all the time He is good. Thanks for letting me vent here and you can carry on with your day now, just try not be too grumpy today. God Bless!!!!
P.S. today is much much better, it's all in your attitude, you can control great things with that.
Michelle
